
Disappointments but it’s also full of beauty.
The first miscarriage was difficult to understand being so young. The second miscarriage was a nightmare. Luckily, that is all over now. I would say there will always be a hole in my heart and it will always hurt but I have accepted what has happened and have moved on.
The second miscarriage was so traumatic; we had no desire to try for another kid anytime soon. We needed time to heal. Then all of a sudden around February the baby bug had bit me. I started to ask if Chris was ready, he was hesitant but then one day he was ready to have another kid.
That’s why this third miscarriage has been more difficult for us. This was the first time in our marriage we had started planning for a kid. We wanted to grow our family. With each month that passed, as we were trying there were tears as “that time of the month” came around signaling there was no baby. Then one day, we had a positive pregnancy test.
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